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Tammus says he's in love with me. :)

Just in case anyone needs this info:

Houdini, a musical based on the life of the escape artist, with music by Oscar and Grammy winner Danny Elfman, lyrics by David Yazbek ("The Full Monty," "Dirty Rotten Scoundrels"), and book by Kurt Andersen (the novels "Heyday" and "Turn of the Century"). Hugh Jackman will star. Directed by Jack O'Brien ("Hairspray"). Original target opening: spring 2010. No new dates announced. (source)

If I find a definite opening date, I will be sure to update everyone.

Anyone planning on going? Want to go? Angry that you live on the wrong coast (that's me!)?

I painted these last year for Thing a Day 2009 (gotta check now to see if there's going to be a Thing a Day 2010!) and the originals are still for sale on ArtFire.

Prints, however, are for sale on Etsy - choose from snuggling lovebirds or billing ones. Click the pictures to view the listing.

I painted these last year for Thing a Day 2009 (gotta check now to see if there's going to be a Thing a Day 2010!) and the originals are still for sale on ArtFire.

Prints, however, are for sale on Etsy - choose from snuggling lovebirds or billing ones. Click the pictures to view the listing.

I painted these last year for Thing a Day 2009 (gotta check now to see if there's going to be a Thing a Day 2010!) and the originals are still for sale on ArtFire.

Prints, however, are for sale on Etsy - choose from snuggling lovebirds or billing ones. Click the pictures to view the listing.

I can has a volunteer. She's probably older than me, she used to drive her own truck all over Florida (California doesn't pay as well) and her hook, the thing that got her foot in the door into this place of Severe Restrictions on Volunteerism, is that her only son died in a car crash last November and she was looking to break the depression.

Did you know that in Quebec there were 500 deaths-by-automobile last year and 100 deaths from H1N1 'swine flu'? We all need to get vaccinated against the desire to drive everywhere.

So, the volunteer -- I'm doing my best to wear her out. 8^D

My bosses are all worried that she'll slow me down as she follows me all day, but she's an eager enough shoveler and sweeper so it all evens out. She loves all the critters in my area although she can't remember what they're called from one minute to the next. Not personal names, _what_ they are, like: meerkat, lemur catta, fishing cat... What was that animal called again? Some kind of cat? So, after 15 years as a trucker her career shift is to geriatric care. She looked at animal care but that's a three-year certification and the salaries are like $10/hr. Geriatric care, only one year and better pay afterward.

I was to have her Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Friday I got to wear her out almost all day (7am to 5pm). Saturday at noon she remembered a dinner appointment with her brother and took off. Sunday I was wallowing in snow and she didn't show. 8^D



It's still snowing, with the added bonus of either freezing drizzle or fog coating everything with an icy glaze. At least in the morning I can plug in the space-heater I keep on the passenger-seat and melt the stuff off. And go to work in a toasty car. That doesn't stop freezing rain from sticking on the ten minute drive to work. Sunday I had to stop twice to scrape the windshield clear.
( Winter wonderland with wallabies and whatnot. )

Spent my afternoon off going to the bookstore, getting lunch, and going to the bank. Was a good afternoon. Came home, my plans for tonight got cancelled. Amythest is still run down. Ok, stayed home, watched tv. Now I'm playing with my feezles. Had a little bit of a blue evening, but it's getting less blue. Ferrets help, so do friends. Now to get through the next two days. *focuses* I can do it. I will do it. Just would help to have another long weekend. ;)

~sigh~

Okey. Let's see, well, yesterday I couldn't sleep. I tried, didn't work. I even took my little herby sleepy pill. I could feel it but still didn't fall asleep. I thought, a glass of wine would help. I had none. So whatever. I went out to see the friends and dance and hear the musics. Also I bought some wine as a prophylactic against potential insomnia (which, by the way I know they say alcohol before bed is a bad idea, but that's not my experience so fuck em). So I danced and saw nice people and went home fairly early cause I was feeling sleepy and I thought I was gonna watch a movie, drink a glass of wine then go to bed. I poured the wine, was poking the internets a bit then my eyes started to close. I hadn't even drunk no wine. So took my contacts out and crashed.
Woke up before noon cause my head said "Get me caffeines!"

Tammus has his new work+school schedule. As usual it looks crazy, just a different crazy than last time.
The sleep schedule has to be split 4 days a week. I don't know how this is going to affect me. Guess I'll find out.
We are both *really* looking forward to the time in which he'll drop the work or drop most of his work hours and just do school. He's got some plans to, and I've no idea how that's gonna happen but he's got a plan and he's a good planner so I've got good hopes. :)

Anyway, I'm up now and I think I'm gonna get some shopping done. I've been really *wanting* to go to Goodwill. Funny these cravings. Also my mechanic suggested using a test light to figure out the battery drain thing and described a testing process that seems pretty easy. So gonna go get that.

Lately the mood has been having some precipitous dips. Quite scary dips actually. And then something lets go of it and like a ball filled with air it bobs back to surface after being held in the dark depths for a while. Of course it must be me taking some thoughts seriously that drags it down. Those thoughts can't just be shoved away either, that doesn't work and just makes me afraid of them. Anyhoo, it's grace that I'm not always being tortured. It's grace when something lets go. I'm sure the experience has some useful quality but I am so glad when my mood bobs back up. I'm grateful for it's return to sanity.

Seeing nice peoples and dancing was really lovely good for me. :) Thank yous for being there.
Even the peoples I don't know.

I was talking to a friend last night (whom I'm really not sure even recognized me, my changing hair length and relative reclusiveness seems to have that affect) and something he said made me think that yes, suffering is real but the cause of it is illusion.
This is no surprise, not new info but stated that way ...
I think sometimes we're unkind to ourselves when we suffer because we guess that we're suffering over illusory things and it seems kinda stupid, but see were *trying* to get it, we haven't entirely got it yet otherwise suffering would end. It's may sound simple but if it was so simple we'd all be knocked free already.
Yes of course in a sense suffering is an illusion too cause it's based on one but how kind is it to tell someone who's in pain "dude, that ain't real"? It would be kind to say "Oh, you're in pain, how can I help you?". We could live the truth of love or the lie of resistance and we probably all do both at various times.
Anyhoo, self compassion recognizes that suffering is experienced as real by the sufferer; ourselves. Our job is to love ourselves right out of the illusion that causes it. Our job is not to do it perfectly but to try.

Ps. Fuck what Yoda said, there is a "try". Sheesh.

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Well, I'm taking a half day today. Why ? Mental health. (metal health will drive you mad...) I'm having issues with getting focused at work, getting my ass in gear etc. So I talked to the boss, and I'm taking off at 1pm. Half day. So yay, sanity clause. Not sure what I'm going to do, besides flee. Tempted to go to the big Half Price Books up in Dallas, and engage in some retail therapy.

Nothing else going on, in a good mood, focus issues aside. Had a quiet night of TV, ferrets, reading and sleep. Got to bed at a decent hour. Dreamed of visiting a friend out in San Francisco, and doing the whole tourist thing. Tonight is hanging out with Amythest time. Yay Amythest time. That's about it, probably should at least look like I'm working for the next 2 hours. *wave* Laters.

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Okay, so comicgenesis.com has waaay too many problems. I decided to quit messing with it completely and just start a new one at smackjeeves.com. So, change all your bookmarks to: crowscraps.smackjeeves.com . All the original strips have been loaded up there now and I'm working on getting my scanner hooked up again and prepping some new content. Wheee! Progress!

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That software I was arguing with, it's now bending to my will. Note to developers, if software can't find a file, give an error that says 'I can't find it' in a non-vague and not-quirky way. This will keep admins from wanting to grind your bones into powder. :)

Well, nothing like a good night's sleep to improve your view of the world. Yesterday I was down in the dumps. Not bad, just blah. Got a message from Amythest, who asked me if I could go with her to the doc-in-a-box. Sure, things friends do for each other. Go, get doc-ed, get dinner on the way to a long, surly line at the pharmacy. Then get her home, where she promptly takes her meds and heads to sleep. I come home, grab a shower and go to bed early myself.

Then, for a nice change, my subconsciousness does not mess with me. I have a dream about a party with friends, which I don't remember details. Then two more dreams about a cute, short and very friendly female that I do remember details from but won't share ;) The female is noone I know, just another random entry in the subconsciousness's guest list. Darn it. ;) Oh well, was nice to wake up smiling instead of cursing the clock.

Got to work, got handed yet another software install task. This one isn't going to be simple...so far I've cursed, grumbled, and even called the software names. Oh well, there's no deadline on this one, just something for the techs to use at some point. So I will make it work, I just may be using a hammer at some point.

Stomach is back to normal, I pushed it today with a JackInTheBox cheese burger. Yes, I can haz cheezburgr. Was tasty, and no complaining from the peanut gallery. Tonight is...not sure. I need to go to the bank at some time this week, I need to go to the store as well. But I don't have a list so I think that will get pushed back to Thursday. I do know there will ferret time and book time and probably watching more of season 3 of 'Supernatural' *waits for the Winchester fangirls to squee*. Then early to bed and hopefully another dreamgirl visit ;) Well, a fox can hope, after all. *wicked grin*

Now that's unusual:

A new year, a new Flickr account. Will the free ride ever end?

I tried to create an account yesterday to follow the full spring.frith (200 image limit, y'know) but since it took over six months to fill spring.frith I'd forgotten things like that I'd need to give a real email address. I tried ostie@tab3rnac.ca. No dice. Maybe next time I should feed Yahoo the addy for some major corporation or other... *checks email* Ick. There's a confirm or delete message there. Rats. I'd run the risk of a third party canceling the Flickr account.

So, snow. Snow what? Lots of snow. Shoveling, shoveling, shoveling. Snow! Ahahahahahaha...

Yeti land is open to the wandering public. We are walking crias every morning at 11:30am, usually just one or two of the three with their mothers. Here they are getting used to being leashed and out and about. Their wee halters just barely fit.



Since the half-assed melt we had on Dec 27th, it has been snowing pretty much every day. The alpacas need an incentive to venture out.
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Edit!

Hee Hee!! msuzoocrew ("spread a little sunshine") has ban-set me! From raining on her parade of Tweets no doubt. Last time I chimed in was to point out that her distaste for 40/50/60 year old men taking interest in a (her?)¤ Yahoo personal ad looks odd coming from someone who apparently stalks a Broadway actress named 'Julia'. That got deleted without discussion. 8^( This time she bemoans the fact that losers on Jeopardy get _only_ like $1000. My 2 cents: "Waddya mean, sucks? $1000 is a lot of free money, even if Uncle Sam takes half! Think of it, free money for a few hours of fun and adventure. Win! 8^D" And then I tried to post. Disallowed! Oh the humanity! *single tear*

*sigh* There is so little meat on that bone (I mean really, Tweets? In the third person, no less??) that maybe I should just flush that account from my reading list.

¤ hard to tell if it was her advert since she Tweets in the third person. 9_9

Убийство курсанта "превратилось" в сердечный приступ

Мать погибшего курсанта Краснодарского высшего военного авиационного училища заявила в эфире "Пятого канала", что руководство учебного заведения преподнесло гибель юноши как сердечный приступ.

Мать погибшего Романа Хоруженко, Светлана Хоруженко, сказала, что начальник факультета говорил с ней по телефону кратко и невнятно. Представитель училища лишь заявил, что спасти ее сына не удалось, и что он умер от сердечного приступа. После этого начальник факультета повесил трубку. По словам Хоруженко, она считает гибель сына убийством и намерена добиться наказания виновных.

Военная прокуратура тем временем возбудила по факту гибели курсанта уголовное дело. По информации издания "Живая Кубань", дело завели по статье 335 УК РФ ("Нарушение уставных правил взаимоотношений между военнослужащими при отсутствии между ними отношений подчиненности").

В ночь на 3 января уроженец Улан-Удэ Роман Хоруженко был избит в казарме другим курсантом - уроженцем Приморского края Артемом Гавриловым. Причиной конфликта стало нежелание Хоруженко принести Гаврилову ноутбук, находящийся у дежурного по курсу. После первых двух ударов уроженцу Улан-Удэ стало плохо. В казарму приехала скорая помощь, однако спасти юношу, которому через две недели должно было исполниться 19 лет, медикам не удалось.

Краснодарское высшее военное авиационное училище с 2001 года является единственным в России вузом, готовящим военных летчиков.

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So once again, The New Year rolls in like it’s made of candy and wine and looks me up and down and says: “I see YOU haven’t changed a bit”. I hate that guy.
My New Years Resolutions:

1)Quit Smoking
2)Start Exercising
3) Focus on turning writing and art into a business so I can finally make headway towards being my own boss.

That last one is a doozy, but the one I’m most interested in pursuing. My boyfriend is rationing out my cigarettes, I’m trying to actually take the stairs and walk the dog once in a while, maybe dance around in the morning for a little bit, but mostly… mostly I’m focusing on my art and writing.
Step number 1: revamp the existing website for my comic http://crowsscrapbook.comicgenesis.com/
step number 2: focus on creating strips and things to sell in the store
Step number 3: develop and create additional projects that have been lurking in the back of my head.

Creating a blog to put on my comic’s site is part of the revamp. Neat, huh? I now have blogs at wordpress and blogger.com to be specifically used for comic related stuff. This site will mainly be just personal and I don't intend to advertise it to the mass public. If you want to keep an eye on the others, my nickname at the other two is "crowscraps".

I haven't figured out how to insert the blog on my website yet, but I'm working on it. Since I haven't logged into the comic in 3 years, I'm having a hard enough time remembering my passwords! keenspace has it's own funky tags I have to use as well so I have to brush up on the code and FTP stuff. fun for me for the next week...

Sverdlov factory.



Sverdlov factory.
Oil on canvas,
50x70 cm., 2010.

My paintings catalogue: http://rubenm.spb.ru